i'm at a loss for words. it seems incomplete, everything. i remember you and i remember this and that and i remember that i'm not done remembering, even though i can't remember what i had for dinner the other night. i can't seem to stop them - the memories flitter here and there. and then this happens. which causes another set of memories. a whole new catalog to be built - good, bad, sad, incomprehensible. the thoughts are muddled and confused and keep me wired all night. i feel bad that i did not see this coming. i wonder if there is anything that anyone can do to prevent things. i feel like i have failed. amid all of that, a funny thought pops up and makes me smile. i hope you're ok... everyone whom i have known.